now when the only thing i really need is lil care bout me after my grandma'died, and i just wanna feel him closer, i need his help, he says that he's tired of me and dont wanna see me again.
i just lost 5 years of my fucking life and it's gone when i realy need it the most.
i didnt even expect that it's so hard and painful. just cant believe in this.
now i'm just really really really really really alone.
feeling dead and hollow.
it's so surprized that even such stupid dumb animal like me is possible to love somebody.