God why i'm such a loser? I was so happy when i finally find a new fandome such great and cool like Metalocalypse, which i loved so much, and voilla - shit happens. It hurts me so much.
I thought that fallout can help me to forget about my fucking drama with my exboyfriend who looks so much like Sqwisgaar that i even stoped to draw fanarts with dethklok' guitarists when he left me. I was so happy with him... it's stupid maybe, yeah, but i imagined that he's my beautiful the best lead guitarist in the world, and i'm his little Toki, and it inspired me to draw fanarts and wrote fanfics. And then it all stoped and it was the worst time in my life while i try to forget him.
I stoped to draw, i was so unhappy that no one another fandome cant inspire me at all. Yeah i drew some stuff, saw some movies, series, cartoons, but my heart was empty and it has slowly killes me.
Yeah i'm such a pervert who like slash so much that see it anywhere and live only to draw.
And - what a happiness! - my friend told me about Fallout New Vegas. Actualy i don't like pc games because of wasting time, but FNV was a different story. Of course - Legion, which hates women just like i do joke, just don't like manwoman pairings at all. But the Legion was a great theme to draw some slash arts.
I created a char based on one of my favourite singer, Spider One, leader of Powerman5000 but with black hair, because i already use Spider for my demons art seria with his true hair color, and the show has begun. I started to play and was absolutely happy that i find such great fandome. I started to draw sketches with such pleasure which i didnt feel for a long time. When me my char met with Arcade that was true love. And i colored one of my sketch with them and posted it here. The next day i found requests from 2 of communities of fallout fanarts. I thought - wow that's great than so many people like such type of slash. Actually i didn't subscribe my arts because i thought that the most players hate gay fanarts, so i drew it only for me, not for the big auditory.
I was glad when people started to fave it, and i faved some cool arts which i found in the community too. After that i posted another fanart, with Ceasar. Actually i think that it's not a good art, i think Ceasar looks too tall, but i want to make my char more helpful and to drew only Ceasar's mouth to make the pic more mystery. Uh nevermind.
After that shit happens.
People start to blame me that i stoled someone's char. God i'd never done something stupid at all! I'm not such silly person who cant create a character, and i think that plagiat is the worst shit which can happens to arter!
My heart seems to be broken again.. It's so unpleasant when people blame someone without a real fault, only across their own thoughts and don't want to listen what was really happened.
Damn i realy hope that people can understand that some interests can be the same, and there's not a reason to blame someone only for the quite same kinks, favourite characters and themes.